What happened at Caltech in 2011

I came to India and spoke in Tamil to relatives and had a culture shock as I reduced talking to parents. There were lot of linguistic reasons, vitamin and coffee reasons, cube chess and more. Will expand. Also, due to linguistic reasons, I was not praying. Funnily I don't remember taking even one spiritual book to US.

Mainly once you enter if you don't have a psychology personal paper or psychiatry or a book, its a downward spiral. Therapy is fine.

I was suicidal as I was playing only angry birds and didn't have chess or cube or anything intellectual.